Thursday, May 28, 2009
Which brings me to just how difficult bedrest is. I've had several people over the months since the girls have been born say to me "well bedrest can't be that difficult...I mean, I would love to lay around and do nothing for a while."
And yes, I agree. Laying around doing nothing sounds rather delightful at times! But nothing could ever replicate the incredible fear and debilitating anxiety of being solely responsible for the health of my babies. The first few weeks, I was petrified to even move. Thankfully, that subsided a little bit. But I was still very scared to get up to go to the bathroom...the one and only reason I had to leave the couch. I was afraid. Afraid of gravity. Afraid of my body failing my babies.
There is absolutely no way to express how incredibly difficult bedrest was for that very reason. To know that I was responsible for protecting my babies...no one else. What if I roll over on the couch too many times? What if I'm up to go to the bathroom too often? WHAT IF I LAUGH TOO HARD? Which is exactly why my mother said I was no longer allowed to watch Wipeout.
So yeah, bedrest sounds a bit fun if you can watch the TV shows you want to watch and move around as often as you want to "get comfortable" (I often laid in one spot for HOURS out of fear of setting off more contractions). Bedrest sounds fun if you don't have a constant guilt hanging over your head that if your babies were to be born too soon it's ALL YOUR FAULT. If you don't have the guilt that if your babies face lifelong disabilities due to a premature birth it's all because your body failed. I know it sounds dramatic, but I was put on bedrest when both babies were still under 2 pounds each.
Nothing can duplicate the feelings I experienced while on bedrest. Simply putting yourself on your couch for 67 days just isn't the same.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Friday, May 22, 2009
As far as the "uh-oh" goes...the babies are darn near on the move. Alivia is up on all four's just rocking up a storm! Every now and then, she scoot's both knees forward, but she just hasn't quite figured out how to coordinate the movement of her arms. Adalyn, on the other hand, is quite content rolling around. I honestly think she might skip crawling altogether and simply roll till she knows how to walk. She can roll from one end of our living room to the other in 15 seconds.
So what does this mean? Well, we've been making some major adjustments to the "look" of our house. We moved the coffee table into the basement for the time being. We are also considering moving one of the big chairs out of the living room just to open up the space a little bit more. The problem is with Adalyn right now. Although she is very proficient and very fast at rolling, she only knows how to roll in one direction. So she gets herself caught in corners and up against furniture. So until she learns how to roll the other way, we want as few obstacles as possible!
A few days ago, we put the girls in their sundresses and summer hats, lathered them up with sunscreen, and went outside to enjoy some of the sunshine. Adalyn loved every minute of it. Alivia ended up getting tired and cranky (both of them refused to take their morning naps!!).
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
So in speaking of the wedding, the weather forecast was not good. As it turns out, it did end up raining. Which then reminds me of our wedding day, because we're approaching our 2 year anniversary. Like my cousin's wedding, it rained on our big day. I had several people tell me not to worry about the little bit of rain because "rain on your wedding day is a sign of wealth and fertility." Well, we sure have the fertility part down pat!! We're still working on the wealth part. Ha!
And just for fun....
Monday, May 4, 2009
Now hopefully the weather will actually stay nice out so we can make this a fairly routine thing. I think the girls appreciated the fresh air. Let's face it, they were born in mid-October. Shortly thereafter, the cold weather hit. So we have been cooped up in the house for far too long.
Plus mommy needs some sunshine! I had to get a new drivers' license a couple weeks ago because mine was set to expire. My previous picture was taken when we got back from our honeymoon in May 2007. The difference between the two was amazing!! Not that I ever get a whole lot of color in me....but OH...MY...GOSH. I guess it's to be expected since the last time I saw the sun was the summer of 2007. I essentially missed the summer of 2008 due to laying on my couch. So this mommy hasn't really seen the sun in two years!
Oh yes, and you may notice the difference in the appearance of the blog. I am playing around with some different color schemes. When I was pregnant, I was trying to keep things as gender neutral and ambiguous as possible. But since we now have two little girlies, I figured it's about time I make it LOOK a little more girly! So things may change around a bit for the next couple of weeks till I find something I am 100% happy with. Hope you like it!